Apologies from the off for any ranting or negativity this post may portray…
Sometime ago, I looked to embark on plus size modelling, as part of my continued growth and journey to size acceptance. This was born from my admiration for people like Tess Munster, Sarah H Plus and Aimee Tink and how these beautiful ladies have gone out there to show the World how beautiful we all are, no matter what size we are. I wanted to take this a step further to show that not only are us fatties beautiful but us SHORT fatties, as although there are an increasing amount of recognition for the plus size model, they are still all 5ft9in +, and at a mere 4ft1oin I wanted to show we too can do it…. with the added fact I will also be 40 in 2-weeks…. Eek!
I didn’t have much joy with StarNow, but having made the acquaintance of another plus size alternative model in my local charity shop, who’d have thunk it, eh?, who pointed me in the direction of PurplePort, I was contacted by not one but three potential TFP opportunities! One of these photographers had in fact worked with the model I had encounter, so I thought I would start here, and promptly arranged a shoot for Monday 2nd June…. next week!
Now, here is where it starts to get a bit negative etc….. Whilst trying to determine how I wanted the shoot to go, I got to considering getting a bit more of the flesh out than normal, show off some of these amazing curves…. They take a lot of work to maintain don’t you know? But when running it buy a member of my nearest and dearest, it was met with some negativity… Would I not be embarrassed when people saw the pictures? Would I not be embrassed if my daughter saw them? What would this kind of photo achieve, was there any point to it? To name a few of the comments….. I was also asked if I would actually ever consider wearing a bikini, at which point I did hesitate slightly, but did answer that I thought that I would now, and that I was also considering getting a crop top, to which I was promptly told if I did said person would not be seen dead with me! It was also at this point the conversation went on to body positivity, and again said person said that in their opinion there was a fine line between being happy in your skin and denial!
So, to cut a long story short, it is almost like 1 step forward 2 steps back, I will not be getting out as much flesh as I had anticipated at the shoot, no doubt there will be some though just not as much, and I ask myself am I in denial???????
Again , sorry about the negativity, but sometimes we just have to vent and this was my time….
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